I told you I would be BACK!

Well, I am officially back. I won't go into boring detail as to why I stopped blogging because that is neither here nor there.... stuff happens!

I am out of practice so firstly I will say thanks to a few of you who kept checking to see if I had made a new blog and said they missed The Lost Girl...(I have missed her too, she sort of lost her way).. I have thought about you all so often and hope you are all healthy and well....

Thanks mainly to Lon Chaney aka Marian(my sis in law) and the rest of the Luff gang (David, Mel and Charli) down in Berkshire for reading my stuff and encouraging me to start it up again... Howdy folks.

I will check out the old familiar bloggers and say hi to you all and so you know I am back.... you know who you are.

Moment

A moment turns into seconds. Seconds into minutes. Minutes into hours. Hours into days. Days into weeks......

I have been busily preoccupied...... it has taken me an hour to check out my regular blogging pals and comment and now I dont really know what to say.

What have I been doing? What has kept me from blogging for so long.

Working. Being sick. Working. Sleeping. Trying to sleep. Working.
What a boring existence. It is. Truly boring. I am barely existing.

BUT.... light at the end of the tunnel... (or is it?)

My to do list for Christmas

• Find base for fake tree.
• Find fake tree.
• Send cards - charity of course..... well ,ok....Tescos own were cheaper. Tescos will have their own charity soon anyway.........
• Untangle lights that have been thrown in bag and now do not work.
• Buy booze and try not to drink it between now and christmas.
• Buy new lights
• Buy food that you always buy but would never dream of eating- like dried figs and nuts in their shells!
• Wrap presents beatifully- well the first five and then dont give a damn and use any old paper
• Buy presents - choose a special present for each individual
• Give up on individual presents and buy tin of quality street for the whole family
• Make mince pies - good intention ...M @ S supreme quality and no-one will know the difference
• Go to Work Office do and get drunk.
• Snog someone.
• Maybe not.

So, now I have my list....better get on with it..... good luck with yours....

My 100th post....

It is my hundreth post on my blog. I cannot believe I am still writing on it, I normally lose interest in many pursuits but I like this one..... not sure why really because its a strange phenonomen.... writing to people I have not met or don't really know (apart from a few)... I know I don't know these other bloggers but feel I have made a connection. Some of the regulars (and you know who you are!!!) have left comments that have changed the way I see myself and my life, they have either made me laugh or to ponder.... this is to all of you out there who have contributed to my blog and made it what it is.... its nothing special but I find freedom and solace in sitting here and typing away to you all..... thanks to all your bloggers from UK, USA and Canada!!!!.......

Feeling a little better today....not quite so grumpy.... went to London to see Edward Scissorhands yesterday, the ballet by Mathew Bourne and it simply blew me away!!! nothing better than theatre to cheer you up.... It was truly magical and I recommend it to anyone.....

Got to go now... repeat of LOST that I missed..... (Sad I know!)

Nothing to say

Been away for a while...didn't really have anything profound to say and been working like a dog....did not get the job at the theatre but have been offered some freelance work and meet up with someone next week to discuss it...does it mean I do it for FREE? I hope not.... then again, a foot in the door I guess.....

Been feeling a little down in the dumps lately.... I was another year older and now am just one year away from the decade where my life begins.... it better had because my thirties have been pretty shit.... I am not drowning in my depression or self pity but would love some excitement or someone to have some excitement with..... Oh well.... another year another 'it will happen when you least expect it opportunity' perhaps....thing is, next week I will be quite happy on my own.....Fickle, thats me.

Emptiness

Wierdness.
I yearn for something. Meaningful. Know only emptiness. Should be inspired but only feel scared.
Lonely. Alone. A loner.
Disappointed in people. In myself. In life.
A pill. A small white pill. In the pill there is life. My life.

Done it

Passed my MA from Central..... graduate on 13th December..... what a relief....

Not been around much to blog as I am temping busily trying to earn some cash.... well done to all my fellow graduates from Central and see you in December. Sorry I did not make it to Lovely Lukes party but family crisis and was unable to go.... I am sure it went well and Luke does not look a day over 30!

Fireworks 2

Got a bit of a reaction about my previous blog.

OK . Five children in my street were hurt and maimed yesterday by fireworks. It was a happy little family get together, nevertheless it all went horribly wrong. This is happening all over the country. My friend Anna, who is a nurse mentioned that over 150 people arrived in casualty in less than 5 hours yesterday with burns and other firework related injuries.

I don't want to damper peoples fun. I love fun but these statistics are ridiculous. Maybe you should have some sort of licence to be able to have fireworks. Who knows. All I know is I have a blinded sister in law and five children in my street who have been affected by them.....

I hate them.